I doubt if any of you out there in cyberspace ever went to bed wondering if you were going to be the one who wakes and up does everything on your agenda for the day? I’m guessing – no. You have continuity. You go to bed you wake up and it is the same you who went to bed – no gaps.
I do not have continuity, I have gaps. I have what feels like a Roulette Wheel that is just waiting for a trigger set it off and hoping and praying no one spins it. Believe it or not, I just take it in stride. It’s all I’ve ever really known.
That is an awful thing to have to worry about. Shit one time there was a sudden switch and I “woke up” in a state over 1,000 miles away! I’ve learned about triggers and how to deal with them and something that drastic hasn’t happened since.
I’ve been feeling very scattered lately and actually a little frightened… just the past few days or so… no more than a week. Just an example, Roxy goes to bed… however Wendy was the one in the body when it woke up. Next time Roxy comes up front she wonders why this or that happened or something she had to do didn’t get done. Roxy realized one of our fears came to pass… the Wheel was spun and she went to bed one night and the next thing she knows it’s 4 days later and things didn’t get done so now there is a rush… if Fantasia woke, nothing would have gotten done but if JoAnna woke, a lot would have gotten done. Maybe not what Roxy had to do but a lot would get done.
I’ve tried doing Reiki I’ve tried to watch a show, I’ve tried to read a book, I’ve tried to get things organized (moved some living room furniture around again. lol) I’ve tried to cook or bake something, I’ve tried to play games on Facebook…. try having all that going on at the same time. Nothing really got done obviously. There is only one Body! I feel stuck in quicksand when that happens.
All I’ve managed so far successfully is the Reiki. Thank God because I feel whole again, don’t get me wrong, the others are still there, just more settled. Not so much like herding cats anymore.
As I was getting ready to meditate I heard all this ruckus outside… the Gulls were back and in full force... there must have been over 30 this time! They come pretty damn close to the window too! I was surprised! I did get one pic of just a few on the roof out back.
So during my meditation/Reiki session I decided to focus on Guardian Angels seeing Gabriel has been hanging around me lately. (Thank you ~*~)
Anyone who wanted Reiki got what I got because that was my intent. I did this spontaneously so I did not create an event on my Facebook Page.
My intent was that anyone who reads that post on my page was included in my Reiki. It’s out there so pull it down and relax.
It came down on me as little white feathers, not sure what you felt. Comment and let me know! All I know is I feel so much calmer!
The signs and answers I got were pretty cool! Oh and both cats took their turns on my lap to get their Reiki as well . >^^<
Here they are…
“Seagulls are spiritual messengers that demonstrate that a higher communication with guides is taking place. He shows how to see above situations with a higher clarity and teaches that there are many perspectives to consider. Seagull shows a sense friendship and community and the cooperation that is needed for the whole to operate successfully. He teaches how to ride the currents of the mental, emotional and physical worlds. Are you going with the flow or fighting it? Are you cooperating with others? Are you open to your guides? Seagull can teach you many lessons of looking, living and being. It is time to listen and watch for the nuances and timing of action.”
I have been asking for clear messages lol and as for the conception and birth things… The Meld is a type of birth and believe me it’s strange and wonderful at the same time.
Here is another message I received from my perpetual Angel Calendar…. Perfectly synced with what I have been crying out for… it gets better… keep reading.
This is my other perpetual calendar’s message for today… How appropriate for someone with DID.
A little flock. That’s us a flock of seagulls.. (Sorry couldn’t resist that…)
On a more serious note… the last thing was what I thought was going to be my daily Tarot Card… I ended up with 2.
I’m feeling more settled and that is due to an extended session for me and I ended up dozing off towards the end and awoke when it was finished. ~*~
I hope you got something out of it as well… feel free to let me know ok?
Namaste ~ Diana & Melany