I can’t get away from either. Got rid of about 4 or 5 of those bugs this morning.
If you want to know about the stink bugs as a spirit totem read here but scroll down past “the itty bitty pest control committee” that’s shown here on that post. If you want to read the whole thing, be my guest but the spirit totem info is down the page some.
I see “Be Still and Know That I am God” over and over the past few days or so as well. I know deep down I need to be still and stop trying so hard. I just need everything around me and things that I use to have MY personal touch.
MINE NOT THE BLONDES.
The wanting it NOW is what is making me crazy because I still have others hanging around. Melany for one. You know she carries some with her as well. Which means I feel them as well. It just depends if there is any triggers or not and who is around if and when one does pop up.
I am sick of trying to untie the wad the blonde left. I don’t say this disrespectfully, just a fact. She did what she could do. But OMG! Come on… I need simple in my life right now. I am still going through this Meld and don’t need all this hassle.
I am going to have to ask for more help. I can’t bear to lose the me I found. I get stressed and the meld doesn’t go so well… the stress puts the beginnings of cracks in my crystal chrysalis. I am working to solidify it but I as well as this melding process is very much like walking a tight rope made of one strand of hair and you’re too afraid to look down. My crystal chrysalis is very fragile and there are still cracks being repaired while new ones show up. It’s making me NUTS!
It can be disheartening because apparently I do things differently than the blonde. How the heck am I supposed to know what she did and how she did it???? I only know if someone tells me. I do what I do and that’s all I can do.
I find it hard to “Be Still” or even do one thing at a time. If I’m not doing more than one thing I’m antsy, if I am doing more than one thing, I can get overwhelmed. I need to find the correct balance. Sometimes I find it, most times, not. Right now I am writing while I am waiting for the part I kept falling asleep during comes up on Oblivion. It should be coming up soon.
My greatest fear is waking up as one of the others but then again, I wouldn’t know until I (IF) I came back up front. I did get a little lost this past week and am still kind of fuzzy and fussy too. lol
So I will leave you with that.
Time to (try) and watch the rest of Oblivion… wish me luck…
namaste ~ Diana & Melany