I’m still feeling scattered and depressed. Mostly overwhelmed really. If I think about what needs to be done or where I have to or want to go I get that feeling where I want to put my face in my hands rock back and forth and scream. It sucks when you want to do something but you know it will be too overwhelming. Some people may understand some not. All I know is I have to do what is right for us in The Body. Since the switch from the blonde, a lot of people and things are new to me/us and to go into a situation with a lot of people around that knew us as the blonde would be traumatizing for us. I know that sounds dramatic but it’s the truth. We can’t be somewhere where people will be using the other names. It’s scary and very overwhelming. If I had someone to go with which I don’t it would be easier and maybe do-able. We don’t so we can’t . I’m not talking about any one specific thing here, there are a bunch of things going on and we are doing the best we can to hang on. We did start the IOP (Intensive Outpatient Program) yesterday and we go back tomorrow and thursday and repeat for the next 6 weeks or so. Hoping this will help us with coping better.
Back to the tarot…
Five of Sea:
Cats do not like to fail. Loss of dignity is almost physically painful to us, and when we attempt something that doesn’t succeed, it is made far worse if anyone else sees it happening. This cat has taken an involuntary plunge while fishing. The fish are still there and he can try again, but first he must tend to his dampened spirits and his soggy pride.
The Cat’s Advice – (Reversed Card for me):
Opportunities are all around you now, and more are on the way. Be sure you have completely let go of past regrets and wishful thinking about what could have been so you are ready to take advantage of everything good that is meant for you now.
Well, I will look my way for opportunities and let go of past regrets and wishful thinking… focus on what is coming my way with no expectations. Just let it be. Period.
I hope you can take away some meaning from the Five of Sea (Reversed) today. If so, let me know.
~Namaste~ Melany (July 1, 2014)