In the Midst of Dissociation ~ Day 84 ~ It’s Quiet…

…in here today. To be honest, the quiet is scary. Or it will be later when I am alone. Right now Marshall is home and making me crazy with his negative attitude. He went upstairs now. I hate to say it but I am glad. There is only so much negativity one can take or deflect.

The quiet. It really is scary for me to not hear the others. I can feel two of them with me but not hear them. They would be Chamille and Joanna. Two very good choices – for lack of a better word. They are both strong and very positive. Chamille likes to say she is Large and In Charge! We like her. We enjoy how we feel when she is strong and there. Joanna, she is a free spirit, kind of like a grown and matured Fantasia. I can also feel Joni, she is also a good one to have around. She is also a positive one as well as another free spirit who won’t take no for an answer when there is a yes there somewhere.

I don’t know what they are up to. It is concerning because yesterday we had a bad flashback about getting beaten by an ex boyfriend. And now today, it’s quiet. Are they all huddled and regrouping? I don’t have a clue right now. It’s kind of wait and see… which I do not like at all. That usually means a switch is imminent. 😦

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I don’t care what happens, I am not, I repeat, I, Diana, will NOT give up The Body. And I Do Not like the feeling I have. It is disconcerting, it is unsettling. I still don’t know what the significance of tomorrows date is either. April 19, why are you tormenting me?? Well, I am glad that tonight there is a Qigong Distance Healing Session that I am a part of. I will happily pop on my Beats and listen to some nice meditation music while receiving tonight!

So, on that note, unless we have more to say later…

Thank you for spending some of your day with us!

~Blessed Be~

~Diana~ (April 18, 2015)