Hola! Here I am back again. A bit frazzled and calming down from a little panic attack. Thank God/dess that we have tools we learned in the IOP program to calm back down.
I bet you’re wondering why I was having a little panic attack, well, I will tell ya. You know that we are still waiting on the court date to come right? Well, every day except for Saturday and Sunday we check the courts housing site and put our name in to see if there is a docket number with a date yet. Nothing. Saturdays and Sundays we don’t even look. We know it will show up online before we get anything in the mail.
Yes, that is what we just did, looked online and our hands are still shaking and our heart is still beating fast. We decided to look right before starting to write because the writing and you guys out there in cyberspace are a great help and comfort to us. We know we are not alone and there are others out there who care.
So, transformation and glass houses. Weird combo eh? lol Ok, read about the transformation (It was our spiritual message for today) and then I will explain how that and glass houses go together.
A person can transform, a situation can transform, even the planet can transform. Never lose hope. Under the proper conditions of love, faith, and belief, transformation is quite possible.
Now the glass house part came from a reading we have at our groups, it’s from some little booklet and they are really good, there is always something to take away from it and today it was about throwing rocks and living in a glass house.
Here is the part I underlined that stood out to me:
Our own kinks and dead spots are far more difficult to identify.That difference in “vision” is a fact; we have to accept that we tend to be blind when we look at ourselves.
We are all glass houses. We are all vulnerable to stone throwers.
It is so easy to point out the flaws in others yet we are usually quick to deny our own. Sometimes the more easily we find flaw in others means that flaw exists within us as well. It is much easier to throw a stone at their glass house than to throw one at ours.
Change or transformation requires action and sometimes the people closest to us, when they see that change/transformation for the better in us will simply throw a stone at our house out of anger. They want us to stay stuck. Not get better. Be the mentally ill one, the black sheep. That makes them feel better about themselves. And that is a shame. When someone makes changes for the better they should be supported not put down.
Today I choose to use those stones being thrown at me to line my beautiful gardens that lead up to my glass house atop a cliff looking down at the ocean. So there. That’s what I have to say about the stone throwers. I’m just glad that in my life they are few and far between.
By the way, I’m starting something new. A video blog on my YouTube page… (eik eik eik – exposure!!! lol) You can check out the very first one Here. It’s about 2 and a half minutes. Short and sweet, a kind of test run. Tell me what you think ok?
~Diana (April 21, 2015)