In The Midst Of Dissociation ~ Day 176 ~ Realizing Reality

Well, reality is setting in. We want to go home but there is no longer a home to go to, just a room. I don’t know what to say so this may be short. We are all scattered today. We also know we need to make some much overdue changes.

First off we ARE home even though it is not the home we want to be in. Don’t get me wrong, we are very much appreciative that we have a place to lay our head. It’s a huge change. We were in our home for almost 15 years. We have been in our new home for 18 days.

Secondly we need to quit smoking, we have been having more and more trouble breathing and are way overdue for our cardiology appointment. We never realized just how much of a toll the unending stress we have been under for the past 3 years has taken on our mind and especially our body.

Thirdly (is that even a word? lol) we need to– no we ARE joining the Y on Monday. They are waiving the join fee as well as prorating me for the remainder of the month as long as I join that day. I can and I will. We may not be able to do much at first but over time we can get back to where we were about 6 or 7 years ago. Well, we are going to do our best. The fact that we have no car and will be doing a lot of walking is an incentive to go. Good thing the Y is only about a 10 minute walk from me.

Lastly for now… we need to be eating gluten-free again. We are in a lot of pain but we have not been eating gluten-free for the most part like we were about a year ago when we felt so much better. We can only go up from here.

I think I will request that cardiology appointment now while I am thinking of it… so on that note…

Until next time…

Diana signing off. (July 18, 2015)