Lost Innocence


How many times can one lose their innocence? From what I gathered from conversations of adults as I grew into one myself, I thought there was only one loss. Now as an adult I am realizing that there are many many losses of innocence. I count a total loss of faith in something as a loss as do I count loss of trust.

A loss like that is not something to take lightly, not like someone promising you a blue bike and you get a yellow one. More along the lines of trusting the banking system and then losing your home. Now, THAT leads to a loss of innocence because they end up raping you. You learn the hard way never to trust them again. 

The loss of innocence can lift you up because you find new strength or it can drop you like a rock into the deep dark pit of depression if, if you allow it to.

Do you want to fly strong and free? Do you want to drop like a rock into the pit?

I’m pretty sure that you did not choose “option 2” lol… at least I hope not. If you did, please call someone and talk it out.

You lose innocence when you find out “Santa” isn’t real…
You lose innocence when being betrayed as a child…
You lose innocence when you realize that you are the outcast…

As you age, some change and some stay the same…

You lose innocence when you find out there is no such thing as a “Prince Charming”…
You lose innocence when being betrayed as an adult…
You lose innocence when you realize you are still the outcast…

HOWEVER… You may think I’m all doom and gloom, well continue reading and then check your decision ;).

You can choose to gain confidence when you realize that “Prince” is not real. You can begin to see the world for what it is and what it isn’t… objectively. You can find that balance between Fairy Tail and Epic Disaster. What that does is open you up to what The Universe wants for you. You stop trying to control it all. 

You can choose to learn to trust again… slowly and carefully at first until it becomes second nature to know when and when not to.

You can learn to embrace your lovely self! Immerse yourself in your quirkiness… soak it up and enjoy! You only have You to answer to at the end of it all. 

You can CHOOSE or you can LOSE. It is all up to you and how bad you want inner peace.

I hope you CHOOSE. I did and I do not regret it at all!

Until next time…
Blessed Be…
Saila

 

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