Who Pulled The Curtains?


It was sunny outside today but dark, so very dark inside. We woke up in the darkness. I don’t know why or how it happened. We deeply miss what was. Our home. Our home is no more. Our home has been no more for almost a year now. July 1 will be a year that we have been homeless. Bouncing around from place to place…  We now struggle and live in a long-term motel. We try to be thankful. We try to be positive. We try to be hopeful. But we can’t breathe… and no one will help… no one will provide the oxygen we need to live. It’s stress related says my doctor… see a shrink. Our shrink says go to the ER if it gets bad because she has no earlier appointments for us. If we go to the ER we are too afraid they will admit us and right now with our situation we cannot have that.

How long can one stay positive and trust that things will work out? How long before they get to a point where they are so desperate they will do anything for relief? I don’t know if I like this new chapter. It feels like no one cares. People want to jump down my throat. People tell me to take care of me. People don’t realize that I cannot afford to take care of me. If I stop to take care of me I will just end up in a worse homeless situation than I am now and lose even more than I have already lost. I really can’t afford to lose any more than I have… I really can’t. I just can’t…

I think it’s time to go find my Coco and snuggle… she gets it.

Yea, until next time…

Blessed Be,

Saila

Mystical Cats Tarot ~ Five of Sky


Merry Meet!

Are you the one who has changed for the better? Are you now being forced out of your clan? Are you the one hanging on? It’s time to let go. It’s past time to let go… Read on for the Mystical Cats advice…

5 of Sky

Five of Sky:

Other clans welcome newcomers, but the Sky Cats are suspicious of outsiders. Groups of young toms patrol their territory and challenge any cat they don’t recognize. These street thugs are much braver in a group than they ever would be on their own. Coming upon a Sphynx, so different from themselves, their bullying is merciless. The Sphynx, who means no harm, must hope to find an escape and a warmer welcome elsewhere.

The Cat’s Advice:

You can’t win a battle against those who have no honor. There is no reasoning with closed minds and no persuasion that will open a closed heart. If you are the one who is bullying or caught up in mob rule, stop and consider your actions. Victory at any cost is a hollow victory indeed.

Did the phrase “…must hope to find an escape and a warmer welcome elsewhere.” strike a chord with you? A sad chord at that? A realization? Something you do not want to be true but unfortunately it is. You have no clue as to why it is how it is but — it is. You have to accept the loss, the drastic change, what seems to be a permanent change. There Are warmer welcomes elsewhere, you just need to be open to it to see it. These warmer welcomes are all around you. Embrace them as well as embracing your beautiful uniqueness.

Until next time…

Blessed Be…

Saila