Settling back into Reality


It’s been a week now that Kiki and I have been back from our cruise. Trying to get back into some semblance of *normal* is not easy when all you want to do is go to The Spa or sit on the balcony. Poor Kiki had to go back to work the very next day. I know how exhausted I am and I don’t have to go to work. It was all I could do yesterday to go to my therapist appointment! But to go right back to your job… ugh. I wish I could rest for her lol. Ah, what I can do later on is send her Reiki.

Ya know, I just remembered something… when we were at one of the shows, it was a 70’s, 80’s, 90’s show… I started having flashbacks of those times. Major ones where I almost ran out of the show but I knew I was in a safe place with a safe person (Kiki ~ I trust her with my life.) So I let the flashes wash over me and realized that after an upsetting first one, the rest of the flashbacks were ok. Kinda fun things to remember like the fact that my Pop would buy an album for one song… it was Chicago’s album with Color my World. He loved that song so he bought the whole album. lol I also remembered going to The Disco with Kiki and Mary and it was the night that Mary (unknowingly at the time) met her husband.

Interesting and the flashbacks did not kill me. They made me stronger… like a rock not Rocky. I feel a little more *put together*, a little less fragmented. I realize now after reading what I just wrote that it is also why I am so tired out mentally and physically. When there is a lot of activity inside (like switching, flashbacks, even extreme cooperation) it can knock me out for a day or so. I’m looking at it as a good thing for me.

So back to getting used to being home after a 10 day cruise…. ahhhh I have my videos and my memories thanks to Kiki! And I am fortunate enough to come home to my very affordable apartment… which if I am careful I can save for another cruise… “OH Kiki!!!!!”

Until next time… Blessed Be… Saila