Emotional Despair ~ Part 4


I’m trying to figure out why I am depressed and totally unmotivated. I know a lot is based on my anxiety that I will lose my home… *sigh* it is getting better tho. There are times that I just sit and enjoy for a bit and there are times that I feel like a frog in a blender.

I think that I just miss my old life before that fateful phone call. I miss living with my son, I miss my neighbor, I miss my condo. I even miss my old job. There is no going back there tho… the company is no more. My neighbors here are a pain, well 2 of the 3 are anyway. All they do is listen for the tiniest noise to complain. I mean come on get a life. Anyway… I have my pdoc appointment soon and we shall see what that brings for us.

After seeing my pdoc, as well as my regular doc (who says my lungs are clear now and to finish the medications!! Whoohooo!!) I got a suggestion from my pdoc… did you ever hear of Tapping? It’s called The Emotional Freedom Technique, or EFT. She said it helps with anxiety… so I looked it up. I’m going to look into it and maybe try it. You can check it out here.

I was glad to get out of the house today even if it was just a couple of doctor appointments and groceries. I know it will hit me later a little bit… still not completely recovered yet from the pneumonia but getting there fast. If I do stuff during the day I feel wiped out in the evening. But it is getting better really fast.

So back to this depression and anxiety… I will continue working on it in therapy and keep working on it here too. It’s helping and I am getting more good times… not more than the bad but they are there… finally!

One thing that is helping me process is what my friend Drew is going through… right now she is in therapy and also facing homelessness again. She has a place to look at tonight and I will hold good thoughts for her!

Until next time… Blessed Be… Saila

2 thoughts on “Emotional Despair ~ Part 4

  1. I’m right there with you my friend. I have a feeling that once I am settled in my new place, and a we bit of money in my pocket, I will have to begin the process of recovering from this latest trauma. This time, however, I have tools that I didn’t have 6 weeks ago. I have meds that allow me to feel and process without feeling drugged up and numb all the time. I have people who have gone before me and made it to the other side. Who could imagine that in six short weeks, EVERYTHING could change? It is happening right before our very eyes !

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