In Between Stages 4 & 5

This part is taking so long. Idk, at least it seems like that to me. I guess I should be happy because it’s the last 2 stages and I should be able to enjoy my home 24/7 without anxiety or fear. The panic is about gone so that is a good thing. 

Reorganization and the beginning of positive emotions- Over time, the sadness stage will start to lessen, and you will begin to see a lightening of your emotions. You will start to perceive your life in a more positive light, although bouts of grief and sadness will persist.

The final phase of this model is to let go of your need for the loss and to move on with your life. Sadness will lessen greatly, and new interests will gradually occupy your thoughts more and more, crowding out the misery and desolation. The final stage is when you “pull your life back together”.

Figuring out about the patterns and the patterns within the patterns has helped a lot. Now I know that the anxiety will start creeping up as we come upon rent day. Once that is handed in and cashed we relax.

It been getting easier since I remembered I gave this situation to The Universe. And I remember that we are doing everything we are supposed to.

I’m looking forward to our one year anniversary here and it’s coming up in July. That will be a “whew”. I’m not sure why, but I know it will.

One thing I am realizing is that I get bored really easily now lol… I take that as a good thing. It means I am not focusing on the negative and am looking for something to do. On that note…

Until next time… Blessed Be… Missy