Well, today is the first day of my first real week. I’m as nervous and anxious as a long tail cat in a room full of rocking chairs.
Yes, today I have to jump into The Body’s life. This is not “training” anymore and I am scared to death. It’s different this morning. I’m left alone so to speak. Left alone to try and put into practice what I know so far.
Don’t get me wrong, the others are still there… The Dark Ones, not the light ones… they are still gone. *Poof* Just gone. One minute there, the next… *Poof*
Funny that the one they (hmmm…. just who is “they”?) left to give me some limited assistance is Diane. Why? I have no clue. Why not Melany? All I get from Diane is her wanting this life to be over with and I need to keep it going. I don’t understand the reasoning behind it but seeing it is what is right now I have to go with it.
What is really terrifying is I have to leave the house today. Nice. Put me out and right into the mix… no “are you ready?”, no countdown… just *Boof!* “Get the fuck out there!”
One good thing is this little cat is crazy funny to watch and interact with! I may not have xanax to calm these nerves but this little cat does wonders! So I will leave you with some pictures of her and be back later to debrief the day’s adventures.