Jaws, Mythbusters and Kiki


Something interesting happened last night. Kiki came over and we decided to watch some movies. We watched Chips and she wanted to watch Jaws. She has watched that movie more times than she can count lol. Me, I had seen it before a few times so I said yeah, let’s watch it.

When it began I realized I didn’t remember the beginning… so I said something about that to Kiki and then said that I will let you know when I thought the beginning was. So here we are watching the movie and I am realizing that I have no idea what I am watching. I realized that even though “I” saw Jaws numerous times it was MY first time! No wonder I had no idea of how it began. One thing I knew about Jaws was the end because Mythbusters did a show on Jaws and exploding the canister and I love Mythbusters!

Yea that’s right. We have seen all the Jaws movies and I am curious to see if we remember the others lol. Talk about wild… watching a movie you’ve seen but watching it for the first time. It was truly amazing and I can’t wait for it to happen again!!

Maybe next week Kiki and I will go for Jaws 2 and 3 lol.

Until next time… Blessed Be… Tanya

Loving my Me’s


Yes, you read that title correctly. lol I was sitting here thinking about Father’s Day and one picture I have of my Pops. It’s a picture of me and my 2 sisters standing in the den with him. I’m blonde in that picture. Why does that matter? Me saying I’m blonde? Because now I have red hair (again) and usually when there was a switch internally and the hair got dyed… whatever color the hair got dyed had to be the profile pic, only pics with that color hair went up… it was a barb in the side to see pictures of (a blonde) someone else on My stuff. You know where I’m coming from? I had to make it Mine and fast! It was a real bother.

Anyway back to the picture… I didn’t get that feeling this time seeing it. I was thinking about posting it on Sunday but then I figure no, not with the way things are with my sisters. And as for ‘my’ blonde hair? I looked at it as another sister, (It’s Joanna in the picture.) knowing it was an altar and being ok with that being seen. I think that was my issue… another way to ‘keep my DID under wraps’. Like having a party when your parents are out then having to clean it up really fast. There is always something tell-tale left out and forgotten. That was my fear… that something would be seen that wasn’t supposed to be seen. Or a question would be asked that I couldn’t or didn’t want to answer.

Interesting to find that I can embrace them instead of want to hide and ignore them. They are a part of me, always have been and always will be. I am deeply deeply grateful for my close friends who accept us for who we are no questions asked… well, sometimes there are questions lol but I can usually answer them.

I think removing people from social media is part of what’s helped us remove ourselves from their expectations… or what we may have imagined their expectations to be. To try to be who they would be comfortable with. Screw that… its way too exhausting. I like being around people who I can be we around without shame, fear or anxiety. I’m grateful that I have friends like that in my life.

Until next time… Blessed Be… Tanya